Void

There are moments in our lives when we stare blankly ahead and just lost in the state of nothingness. it's either boredom or the complete nonsensical phase that we are in. That moment when we swear we are ready to lose everything because we are sure as hell there's nothing to lose. 


There are moments when we felt so crushed, so defeated, so betrayed that we can't even fathom how our heart could handle too much pain. There are those times when bad things happen one after the other and then you can't even grasp the courage to hope for something better but just the ability to keep on understanding the ridiculously piled up misfortunes that keep on coming. 


There are moments when even crying out loud or even making your life miserable couldn't spell out misery at all. Those moments when you felt alone, that no one ever seem to understand and you wish that everything would just end right there and then. 


There are those moments, that you absolutely feel so vulnerable, that instead of fighting you felt the need to give up. The moments when you begin to question your purpose or if there's any at all, the moment when you think you're lost in the middle of a crossroad unable to decide what to do, or not even wanting to do anything at all.


These are the moments when nothing good ever come out of your mind, but the thought of just blaming everything and everyone.


I see these moments of my life. This particular moment, the chance to start anew. A chance to see the most ridiculous chance to the most gibberish thoughts, as some sign to pursue a new road..a hope that it would lead me to a brighter path. And even though it's heartbreaking to lose the baggage behind, starting anew means leaving completely those that made me miserable behind. The seemingly true friends who betrayed me, the childhood dreams that haunted me, and maybe the career that can never be.


This is the result of an outburst. Hoping that i could settle this heavy feeling in my heart...